If I Could...

Hello my readers! Just a little poem I felt inspired to write...for anyone who's felt like they've messed up or just believe that their love with another is not really over...losing love is a toughy, especially when part of you believes it can be found again...

If I could do it all over again...

I'd tell you I love you everyday

So that you won't be confused

I'd shower you with hugs and kisses

So you'd feel appreciated, not used

If I could turn back the hands of time

More of my time would have gone to you

I would not have done so many other things

'Cause you're all I want to do

Unfortunately, that time has passed

And I'm sitting here facing the truth

There's no going back, what's done is done

And needless to say we're through

But even with reality here

Something's telling me it's all a dream

It's all false facts, there's no way this is it

You belong to ME

I did my dirt, you did yours too

...It doesn't mean it can't be cleaned

But you say to me that you "love me no more"

What the hell do you mean?!

Where did it all go? Did you drop it somewhere?

And forgot to pick it back up?

'Cause love just can't go away like that

I know, cause I've tried, and it's rough

I can block calls and texts and ignore you too

I can act as if you don't exist

But I can't block my heart and neither my mind

And that's why I'm writing this

I would love to be friends, have platonic love

But it's all just wishful thinking

'Cause every time I see you, this feeling hits me

And your arms are all I want to be in

What bothers me the most, is I'm so unsure

...Not certain that you feel the same

I don't know if it pains you or elates you

When you hear the sound of my name

I want to know if there are times when I cross your mind

And you fight the temptation to call me

Do you think about me and the fun times we had

And to yourself, do you start smiling?

Do you miss the way we laughed and played?

Do you miss the sound of my voice?

Do you miss the long talks we had?

If you wanted to be committed again...could I even be a choice?

But at the end of the day, I can only tell you how I feel

Still you should know that it's real

But If my time is up...let me know RIGHT NOW

And in time my heart will heal

I'm grown enough to deal with it, it won't ruin my life

If moving on is what I must do

I just had to let you know, what things could be

If I had just one more chance with you...

I'd give you the world...or what I had of it

No days with you would be missed

All my love would come packaged for you

And sealed with a kiss

All the pain I ever caused

I would try to make you forget

satisfaction would be GUARANTEED

No need for second guessing,you haven't seen the new me yet

But If I try and try...and never succeed

If I never get another chance to be yours

I won't feel bad, 'cause I followed my heart

And God will open other doors

~Alondra

*BATTLE OF THE FALSIES*

Earlier this year, Maybelline released their "The Falsies Volum Express" mascara. I'm a mascara fanatic so I bought it when it came out and I loved it!

More recently, Maybelline revamped the mascara and released "The Falsies Black Drama". It's supposed to give more of a dramatic, darker look while still creating the resemblance of a false lash.

I actually accidentally ran across it in Walmart and I just had to buy it! (Yes, new cosmetic products excite me!)

Anyway I've heard both good and bad things about the mascaras so I will give my own personal take on them...so LET THE BATTLE BEGIN!

These are the mascara bottles, the one to the left is the original Falsies and the other is the Black Drama.

I'll start with the original Falsies mascara. As I said before, I absolutely loved this mascara!! It gave my lashes a lot of length and it wasn't too thick. The brush that comes with it is great because it separated my lashes perfectly. I thought that it only seemed to work on me because my eye lashes are naturally long, but I've seen it used on someone that has shorter lashes and it did the same exact thing for them! I would say that this mascara does what it promises...

*My lashes with the original falsies applied*(kinda blurry)

Now on to the Black Drama...it's O-KAY! I didn't love it nor did I hate it. I'll start with its pros: it does give a very dark look and it creates volume. I like the blackness of the mascara, I think that it would accent a smokey eye look very well. The volume of it is nothing spectacular, but it does create a little bit more. Now for the cons: the mascara is just way too thick! After one layer of it it seemed as if I had done it 20 times. It really looked as if I had only four eye lashes. I had to meticulously go through and separate my lashes with an extra lash brush that I have. After I did that, it looked a lot better. Although doing that wasn't a lot of work, I don't like to do anything extra after I've applied my mascara. I'm not exactly sure of the promises they've made with this particular mascara (it's not listed on Maybelline's website), but if it's only to create a dramatic, heavy black look, then it accomplished its goal.

*My lashes with Black Drama applied (after I separated the lashes)*

SO WHAT DO I SUGGEST??? HMMMMMM............

I would definitely purchase the orginal Falsies before the Black Drama, but I don't think it will hurt to have both. It really all depends on how you like to wear your eyes. I switch mine up often, sometimes I wear light/neutral shadows and sometimes I like to have bold/dark shadows; I don't wear the same mascara with every look. If you're a lady who doesn't do much make-up, I would suggest the original Falsies for an everyday mascara. It definitely will make your eyes stand out without any liner or anything else.Basically, to sum all of this up...original Falsies is a MUST HAVE and Black Drama is OPTIONAL, but you can't really go wrong with either of them. They don't run nor are they hard to wash off!

If you want to purchase them, you can find them at Walmart for 5 BUCKS!!!!

*WiNk* ;-)

HOLIDAY NAILS: O.P.I. BURLESQUE COLLECTION

IT'S THE HOLIDAY SEASON!! Aren't you excited? If you're not, you should be! Of course this the time of year socializing is at an all time high, and ladies, we have to be FAB at all times; you never know who you may run into!

I'm going to get straight to the point...a Diva's hands should always be soft AND presentable, so to help with the "hand show" I'm going to suggest O.P.I's new Burlesque Collection!!! This particular collection was inspired by Christina Aguilera and Cher's new movie "Burlesque".

If you don't know, the movie is based on Vegas show girls...and that's all I'm going to say to sum that up; you all should get the point!

They come in both glitter and shimmer colors but I'm going to recommend the glitter polishes because: 1) SHINY IS IN!!! and 2)They're FUN!!!

Above is a picture of the colors they come in. This picture really doesn't do them much justice, but take my word...they are absolutely GORGEOUS! The names of the polishes are even fabulous: Bring on the Bling, Glow Up Already!, Extra-Va-Vaganza, Simmer & Shimmer, Show It & Glow It, and Sparkle-Iscious!

I've worn Bring on the Bling and I'm currently rocking Glow Up Already!

*My nails in "Glow Up Already!"

*Here is a better picture of the polishes...I purchased Glow Up Already! and Simmer & Shimmer*

I absolutely LOVE this collection!! I'm thinking about buying all of them because these are colors that you can wear all year round! If you want to purchase any of these, you can find them at stores like Trade Secrets or Ulta and they're under 10 bucks!! So grab a bottle and get to polishing (or take it to the nail shop like me!) and prepare to get DIVA-FIED for the holidays!!

*KiSsEs*

~Alondra

Don't Be A Sour Apple...

Just a really quick thought!

Why are people so bitter? I mean, really holding on to the things people did to hurt them a long time ago and are seriously still angry about it! Months could have gone by and they still can't mention that person's name without turning red and saying something awful and condemning them to hell!

I can understand when something first happens and you're in the process of getting over it...but after a while you have to make a conscious effort to let it all go!

I've had my share of broken hearts and disappointments...but I can honestly say that I am not still upset about the things that have taken place. When I write it's to reflect on things I have experienced and actually overcame, never to dwell and mope over something that hurt my feelings.

Once I realize something is really over and done with...it's over and done with! There was only ONE time in my life when it took me a whole year and then some to get over someone...and that was my first real heartbreak so it was a learning experience.

The moment I realized I was ready to move on though, I did just that! I didn't look back, didn't put ALL men in that category, and I made sure to start with a clean slate.

Basically, life is way too short to be a sour apple, bitter b...(you know the song!lol) everyday of your life! There's so many things to be happy about! You're alive and well, you're beautiful/handsome, and you're in a position to love again!!

I say, tell whoever hurt you thank you...and count it as a lesson learned. Don't hate them, appreciate them!! (So cliche, but true)

LIVE GOING FORWARD!!!!!

~Alondra

I Woke Up Today...

Last week I couldn't sleep...tossing and turning all night long, mind cloudy with things I couldn't even dream of making sense of...I was restless.

I thought I was okay, trying to play everything cool...but my eyes showed it all...heavy with bags I accumulated over time...I was strained.

No where to lay this the load that was placed on me involuntarily, I was feeling so weighed down...and I kept thinking if only I had someone to share this with...maybe it wouldn't be so bad...I was lonely.

Maybe, just maybe if I had someone by my side I wouldn't have to tote all of this in solitude...for crying out loud I needed peace!

I decided that I was in need of a place where it was alright for me to finally close my eyes...and escape to a land of serenity...

Minutes, hours, and days went by as I embarked on this journey to find rest...taking small step after small step, still struggling with my luggage I had been carrying...I realized I was going nowhere but I was almost certain I was headed in the right direction...

But then it hit me...maybe if I go back to a familiar place, where I knew someone...a land that I've once known instead of the unknown it wouldn't be so hard...maybe I can experience the comfort I once knew...and finally be at ease...

So I backtracked...right to the place where I acquired my load...the feeling there was indeed bittersweet...but it was nothing new to me and it was okay...

For some reason though, this place wasn't so welcoming...this place to which I once belonged...was no longer open to the idea of me staying there...this place told me in so many ways that it was no longer a place for me to dwell...

But my agony, restlessness, and weary body could not bear to accept this...this place USED to love me and I too loved it...why now has its doors been closed?

I begged and pleaded...banged on doors...screaming LET ME IN...I just want to lie down...I just want to rest my overburden head...you used to be ELATED to have me here...

I beat, banged, knocked, kicked, screamed, and cried for so long that when I stopped to take a breath...I realized I had not slept for another week...I was depressed...

I never would have fathomed the place I used to know and love would reject me...I never stopped to think that one day this place would no longer be a safe haven for me...

Where do I go now? What will be my next...

Move...I looked around me...and I saw my bags...and I opened them to see what I would take with me when I go on yet another odyssey into the wilderness...

I decided that none of it I needed...for everything I had taken with me...came from this place that no longer accepts me...

Why should I burden myself with memories of this place?

So I left them there...right on the porch...and I began to walk...

It was dark when I left, it was quiet,it was dreary and I even got a little scared and then....

I OPENED MY EYES...there it was just as clear and unmistakable...for the FIRST TIME in a long time I saw the sun and at that moment I realized I had FINALLY been to sleep!

I felt rejuvenated...as if I could finally take charge of everything...my body was tough, my mind was strong, my heart was clear...I had a huge BURST OF ENERGY!

It felt SO GOOD...I wanted to know where I had gone wrong...I don't even remember closing my eyes and going to sleep...but I WOKE UP TODAY....

I really woke up today...and the one thing that I noticed...is that it was just ME...I was ALONE just as the dictionary said it to be...but I content...

I realized that things changed when I put those bags down...I realized that I was never alone and that the stress of toting those bags were my company...I realized that just as long as I had those bags I was destined to go back to that place...the place, which now that I think about it, was never really the best place to be...I only went back because it was something familiar and because I never truly let go...

BUT I WOKE UP TODAY...and there is nothing anyone can say or do to make me go back....I found rest all on my own...no help from anyone...I accomplished a goal that I thought required assistance when really...it required me to be okay...with JUST ME...

I decided I would do everything in my power to keep me from going back...and that same power would fuel my strength as I venture into a new world and keep me from ever falling weak to any place again...

What I felt when I opened my eyes was a feeling that is unmatched...I saw the sun and my head became clear...and I was complacent...I met a new me...when I woke up today

*After a broken heart...the first thing we must do is be fine with being alone...and the rest will fall into place*

~Alondra

**SEW-IN** ;-)

JUST A COUPLE PICS OF ME WITH MY NEW HAIR INSTALL!! I'M CURRENTLY ROCKIN' BOBBI BOSS INDI REMI OCEAN WAVE 14' AND 12'....I'M LOVIN' IT!!!

This is the hair straight...

And this is the hair in its wavy state!

I PLAN TO HAVE IT IN FOR 2-3 MONTHS!!!

"Somebody Almost Walked Away Wid Alla My Stuff"

Just went to go see "For Colored Girls" and this was my favorite poem from the movie...well book actually...anyway...if you've never read it or seen the movie...here's the poem:

"Somebody Almost Walked Away Wid Alla My Stuff"

somebody almost walked off wid alla my stuff 
not my poems or a dance i gave up in the street
 but somebody almost walked off wid alla my stuff

like a kleptomaniac workin hard & forgettin while stealin
 this is mine/this aint yr stuff/
now why don’t you put me back & let me hang out in my own self

somebody almost walked off wit alla my stuff 
& didn’t care enuf to send a note home sayin 
i was late for my solo conversation
 or two sizes to small for my own tacky skirts

what can anybody do wit somethin of no value on
a open market/ did you getta dime for my things/
hey man/ where are you goin wid alla my stuff/
to ohh & ahh abt/ daddy/ i gotta mainline number 
from my own shit/ now wontcha put me back/ & let
 me play this duet/ wit silver ring in my nose/
honest to god/

somebody almost run off wit alla my stuff/ 
& i didnt bring anythin but the kick & sway of it 
the perfect ass for my man & none of it is theirs 
this is mine/ ntozake ‘her own things’/ that’s my name
 now give me my stuff/ i see ya hidin my laugh/ & how i
s it wif my legs open sometimes/ to give me 
some sunlight/ & there goes my love my toes my chewed 
up finger nails/ niggah/ wif the curls in yr hair/
mr. louisiana hot link/

i want my stuff back/
my rhytums & my voice/ open my mouth/ & let me talk ya 
outta/ throwin my shit in the sewar/ this is some delicate 
leg & whimsical kiss/ i gotta have to give to my choice/
without you runnin off wit alla my shit/
now you cant have me less i give me away/ & i waz
doin all that/ til ya run off on a good thing/

who is this you left me wit/ some simple bitch 
widda bad attitude/ i wants my things/
i want my arm wit the hot iron scar/ & my leg wit the
 flea bite/ i want my calloused feet & quik language back
in my mouth/ fried plantains/ pineapple pear juice/ 
sun-ra & joseph & jules/ i want my own things/ how i lived them/
& give me my memories/ how i waz when i waz there/
you cant have them or do nothin wit them/

stealin my shit from me/ dont make it yrs/ makes it stolen/
somebody almost run off wit alla my stuff/ & i waz standin
 there/ lookin at myself/ the whole time 
& it waznt a spirit took my stuff/ waz a man whose 
ego walked round like Rodan’s shadow/ waz a man faster
n my innocence/

waz a lover/ i made too much 
room for/ almost run off wit alla my stuff/
& i didnt know i’d give it up so quik/ & the one runnin wit it/
don’t know he got it/ & i’m shoutin this is mine/ & he dont 
know he got it/ my stuff is the anonymous ripped off treasure
 of the year/

did you know somebody almost got away wit me/
me in a plastic bag under their arm/ me 
danglin on a string of personal carelessness/ i’m spattered wit
 mud & city rain/ & no i didnt get a chance to take a douche/
hey man/ this is not your perogative/ i gotta have me in my
 pocket/ to get round like a good woman shd/ & make the poem
in the pot or the chicken in the dance/

what i got to do/
i gotta get my stuff to do it to/
why dont ya find yr own things/ & leave this package 
of me for my destiny/ what ya got to get from me/
i’ll give it to ya/ yeh/ i’ll give it to ya/
round 5:00 in the winter/ when the sky is blue-red/
& Dew City is gettin pressed/ if it’s really my stuff/
ya gotta give it to me/ if ya really want it/ i’m 
the only one/ can handle it

-Ntozake Shange. “For coloured girls who have considered suicide when the rainbow is enuf”

**My 6 Month Hair Regimen Update**

If you follow me on twitter, I recently talked about the great results I've had with my new hair regimen and decided I should blog about it too!! Let me add that I have not had a relaxer in six months, which is the longest I have ever gone! I'm on the fence about becoming natural...for now my main concern is just growing my hair back LONG AND HEALTHY. Now, I know that I never told you all exactly what it was that I was doing differently, but now that I see it works...I WILL DO THAT NOW!

THE PRODUCTS AND HOW TO USE THEM:

COCONUT OIL

Ladies (and gents if you have hair)...this stuff is ABSOLUTELY AMAZING! I'm no hair expert but ever since I've been using this my hair has been so very soft,shiny, and manageable! You can google it and you will find out all the many benefits that using coconut oil can have for your hair. The picture above is of the oil I use...Spectrum Organic Virgin Coconut Oil Unrefined. I purchased this from the Whole Foods Market for about 10 bucks. It's important that the oil is virgin because that means it is in its natural state and hasn't been stripped of the properties that help the hair. The oil does come in a solid form but it melts VERY easily;you could melt it in your hand. For convenience, I melt my oil in the microwave for maybe 10 seconds and pour it into a squirt bottle (the one pictured), that way I can get it all through my hair without creating a big, oily mess!

THE TREATMENT (Weekly)

Before I wash my hair, I part my hair into four sections and I saturate each section with the oil. I make sure to put it on my scalp also. Your hair DOES NOT have to be wet when you do this, I never wet my hair, but some like to do so. After I put the oil in my hair and scalp, I cover my head with a plastic conditioning cap and I sit under a dryer or heating cap for 3o minutes...then the wash begins...

MY SHAMPOO AND CONDITIONER

ORGANIC ROOT STIMULATOR OLIVE OIL PRODUCTS

Let me just say that I have NEVER found a product that my hair just LOVES until I started using this particular line. I'm not saying that this product is the BEST for everyone to use, but it works great for ME! It's important to find a product that best caters to your particular kind of hair because what works for the next person may have reverse effects on your hair and you don't want that. Ever since I began using this, my hair has been much softer and I haven't really experienced extremely dry hair! My hair has been very strong and I have yet to experience a lot of breakage during my relaxer stretch. You can find all of these products at WalMart all for under 10 dollars.

HOW I WASH AND CONDITION

I basically follow the directions on the bottles. I don't do anything special. Because I haven't had a relaxer in so long, and I don't want my relaxed ends to break off, I make sure to condition my hair thoroughly. I part my hair into four sections, just as I would the coconut oil, and cover my hair from root to end in the conditioner. I comb it through, cover my head in a plastic cap, and sit under some form of heat for another 30 minutes...then I rinse it out and apply my favorite leave in conditioner by Something Special (pic below)

I love it because it smells great and it's a cream leave-in instead of a spray...I just prefer cream over spray because I feel it moisturizes better!

AFTER THE TREATMENT AND WASHING IS COMPLETE

I normally do heat free-styles...since May I have flat ironed my hair 5 TIMES TOTAL!! When my hair isn't straight, it's normally in a braid or twist out of some sort, bantu knot outs, or a cute bun! I don't spend much time on styling (I will show pictures of my hairstyles in the end).

MAINTAINING MY HAIR

In between washes I make sure to keep my hair moisturized and my ends protected because my over all goal is to retain length. Every 2-3 days I will moisturize and seal my hair with my Organic Root Stimulator Hair Moisturizer and my Coconut Oil. It's quite simple to do this: 1. Part hair into sections and put the moisturizer through the sections 2. Rub coconut oil into hands and put it on the moisturized sections...what this does is help the hair retain moisture so that it will not dry out as you go throughout the day. It's important that the moisturizer you use has a water base so that it will penetrate the hair...(water will be the first ingredient on the bottle if it is). How often you moisturize and seal depends on your hair...for example, my hair isn't really dry so I don't do it daily...but some may see the need to. Below are the products I use for hair maintenance:

STYLE GALLERY:

Heat free styling can be difficult to master at first, but learning how to do it can be fun! You just have to remember that your hair will benefit GREATLY from staying heat free! I will show you just a few of the styles I have been wearing over the past few months and the results of my hair care regimen!

BANTU KNOT OUT

BRAID OUT (USING CORNROWS)

KNOTTED TWIST OUT

SEW-IN (PROTECTIVE STYLE)

AIR-DRIED FRO!(LOVED THIS)

AND MY CURRENT LENGTH AS OF NOVEMBER

THIS IS MY 5TH FLAT IRON STYLE BY THE WAY

I HOPE I HELPED SOME ONE ON THEIR HAIR CARE JOURNEY!! It just takes time and patience!!! I'm getting another sew-in next week so I won't be dealing with most of my hair for a while!! I'll give updates after I take that out!!

COMMENT IF YOU HAVE ANY FURTHER QUESTIONS!! LOVE YA!

Alondra

GIVE ME What I ASK FOR...

It has been a minute since I last posted anything...and I apologize...but I have been inspired to write...I feel as if this would make a great poem and maybe I'll turn it into one some day...but for now...I'll just say what's on my mind:

I would say I've been in the dating game maybe five years now. I had my first love when I was 16...although he didn't love me back, that was the first time I had ever experienced having very strong feelings for someone, it's funny because that wasn't even a "real relationship", but I'm almost certain it's one of the things I asked for...

I had a boyfriend when I was 17, we were together for a year...we were both young so you can imagine the level of commitment we had...but I loved him. Although he never really made me feel special...like buying me little cards or giving me a Valentine's Day gift...I still gave A LOT of myself...but I'm almost certain that was one of the things I asked for...

After him I met a countless number of "potentials". All of them were so nice to me, and liked me so much and said I was girlfriend material. I liked two of them a lot, they were at different times...but each time we had an "understood" relationship. Or so I thought, but I became confused when one all of a sudden got back with his long time girlfriend...and the other up and decided he "wasn't ready". They COULD HAVE worked out...but they lacked honesty, and I'm almost certain that was one of the things I asked for...

Last year I fell in love. Real love. Deep, passionate, make you lose your mind love...I thought I would spend the rest of my life with this one. He said he felt the same...but he tried to control me, belittle me, disrespect me, neglect me, blatantly HURT me, picked me up and put me back down, crushed my self esteem...turned me into someone I had never known and took me to a place I wouldn't dare to go back. I sit back and I reflect...and I'm certain that NONE OF THIS I asked for...

Ladies, aren't you tired of receiving things that you didn't even stick your hand out for? Tired of trying it all over again, saying to yourself "this time will be better", only to realize that this time was worse?! I'm tired of crying at night when I know I asked you to hold me. Tired of confronting women I had no idea of when I know I asked you to tell me! Tired of having HER tell me who she is when I KNOW I asked YOU! Tired of having my heart broken when I know I asked you to protect it! Tired of PLANNED PARENTHOOD when it was NEVER PLANNED! I'm tired of giving my body ONLY to you when you can't even remember the last bed you laid in! Tired of reaping the seeds YOU SEWED when YOU LAID IN THAT BED! Tired of having the doctor to explain what the hell is going on when you "don't know what could have happened"! I'M TIRED OF ALL THE BULL SHIT YOU MEN HAVE GIVEN ME...WHEN I KNOW DAMN WELL I DIDN'T ASK FOR IT...

And you walk around as if we should be grateful. Like we should feel so lucky that you filthy bastards have taken a special interest in us ONLY to destroy our minds with false hopes and confusion...I'm sorry but NO THANK YOU! You can keep your sorry excuses, your pathetic attempts at being "lovers", keep your lies, your dreams, keep those deceitful hugs and kisses that are given the SAME way to me, her,her, and HER! Keep your "special attention" that's really NEVER been THAT DAMN UNIQUE...keep ALL THAT MESS...I don't want it...

What I want...is a MAN, and in him I ask for strength, patience, to be understanding, to be supportive, to fight FOR ME before fighting WITH ME, to accept me as I am, to want the best in everything...I ask for him to have the will to love...THE WILL TO LOVE...I NEED HIM TO HAVE THE WILL TO LOVE!!

And in return...he'll have ALL OF ME PLUS more....everything I have to offer now and the things I will later possess...I'll be more than content with following the crazy demands of love...IF IT'S REAL...

I've given in to a false love for some time now...putting time and energy into black holes...free falling into a bottomless pit of bullshit...never to get reciprocity...But I'm back on my feet and I demand that my demands be met...I DEMAND THAT MY DEMANDS BE MET...I DEMAND THAT MY DEMANDS BE MET!

Don't you dare hand me that bucket of bull shit...GIVE ME WHAT I ASK FOR...

Alondra

(DISCLAIMER: THIS IS NOT MY PERSONAL STORY...)

...It Rained Last Night...

Thanks to one of my followers on twitter I was directed to watch this video...and I must admit it is so very powerful. Now the topic is abortion, and if you feel strongly about it on either end I suggest not watching or either keeping your comments to yourself. My purpose in posting this is not to spark another debate on the topic, but just to highlight these talented African American poets as well as the emotional aspect of terminating a pregnancy. I was moved by the poem, and I hope that you are too...enjoy :-)

*This chick is dope and she has GREAT hair*

HIGHLIGHTS...A new found REGRET

Okay, this will be quick...

My current frustration with my hair has led me to write this. I got highlights in my hair about four months ago and initially, I loved them! I knew I was taking a chance with damaging my hair because of the drying effects of the bleaching agent, but I was like, "Oh well, I take good care of my hair, it shouldn't be so bad"...

It's still "not-so-bad" but the highlighted hair is always shedding! No matter how much I condition and moisturize it still appears dry and I just can not stand it!

In all honesty, I had a horrible battle with lifted hair about two years ago. I had half of my hair blonde and the rest my natural color. My hair was this way for two years and I enjoyed it, but I went off to college and my hair went downhill. I wasn't taking proper care of my hair and the bleached hair broke off in patches! Yes, I had two patches in my head from where the color treated hair had broken all the way off. But to make a long story short, I got my hair back healthy, and went dark...and my hair was beautiful!

Unfortunately (in some cases), I'm the type of person who gets bored and desires change...which leads me to today. I got highlights, which is way better than getting half of my hair colored, but it's still taking the same effect on my hair...and I'm mad! I wish I would have never done it...but living only happens once!

Oh...I decided to go natural too...but that's another story in itself. UNTIL NEXT TIME!

*CoNtEmPlAtE...*

PINK LUSCIOUS LIPS...the MAC way!

So MAC is my absolute favorite brand of cosmetics; I love ALL of their products and lately I've been trying to find the perfect "soft pink" look. It's so cute and girlie yet still quite sexy! I've gone through a few lip sticks and glosses, although I liked them, they didn't quite do it for me.

(Above is the Barbie look...it's cute...but I didn't want so much pink)

Anyway, I went to MAC last week and found the PERFECT color. It's kind of sad because it had been there for the longest but I was afraid to try it, in fear that it would look weird on my full lips. Luckily, I WAS WRONG! I tried on Lady Gaga (that's the color name, I believe) and I absolutely had to have IT! It was the perfect pink, in my opinion, because it was more subtle and you can wear it both day and night and not look like you're over doing anything. (Below is what the box and lip stick tube look like.)

(Below is how it looks on...it's on Lady Gaga's lips, not the other lady's...DUH! lol)

Although I really loved the color and knew I wanted to buy it, I just had to have a gloss to put over it. I don't like wearing lip stick by itself because it can have a dry look....and of course you can't have luscious lips if they're not juicy! ;-) So to help me attain "my sexy", one of the consultants had me try on MAC Dazzle Glass in "Like Venus"...and I was SOLD! It complimented the lip stick so well because the Dazzle Glass has a really fun look. It has shimmer in it, and a sheer pink color to it, so it wasn't over bearing. The two together make the most seductive-looking PINK LUSCIOUS LIP...I give it the "head-turner" stamp of approval!
So if you have any more questions about the products mentioned in this post, please feel free to ask! Also, I was not paid to do this promo/product review...I just LOVE MAC! Hope you enjoyed!

MILK

*This is a blog I wrote back in 2008 and my best friend in the whole wide world had it still!!! So here it is and I hope you enjoy...and please comment!*

False hopes and broken dreams are all I seem to encounter. Even when I know that it's no good I still buy into it anyway. Like milk that's kept past the expiration date...things will definitely go sour soon. What's crazy is that it's great while it lasts but when you least expect it it STINKS the texture CHANGES and you have to throw it down the drain. What's more confusing is that it just might be okay a couple days after it supposedly expires so you just hold on to it KNOWING that one day it just won't benefit you...

I know many of us have experienced "milk like" relationships...you just know it won't last or go anywhere but you hold on to it for what it's worth...WHY DO WE DO THAT??!! Kinda like when you crave cereal and you realize you can't have it because your milk is NO GOOD...why must we wait until we are disappointed?? Why must we hold on only to know that eventually the grip must loosen when we're not ready to do so? It's so unfortunate for many of us because when we pick this "milk" we take time to do it, you look for the one with the expiration date that's farthest away from the day you bought it. For instance...say you met a guy with a little baggage, you continue to talk to him just because he says it's a POSSIBILITY that his load will get lighter and he can indulge more into you(BINGO!)...that sounds good to your ears but in the back of your mind you know for a fact that he'll return to pick those bags up...and you're not really bothered because you figure, hey, it's nothing I ain't gon' trip when (not if) he does...

But what happens when nothing turns into something?? What happens when things are starting to expire but you just don't wanna let go? In many cases you get a little hope because they day after you know your milk expires you can still use it...by then you're probably thinking of great ways to get rid of it before it spoils...we all know "milk" is good for making the SWEETEST of treats...might as well get it while it's good, right??? WRONG!

We mess ourselves up going in with that "I won't care if..." attitude, especially if things switch gears and your feelings start to change. The truth of the matter is you WILL care and the pain of disappointment will set in...it doesn't last long but the fact that YOU let it happen bothers you most. That's when you're left with regrets...the moment when you realize that you should have thrown that milk away and gotten a new bottle. Oh, it makes the situation worse when that "milk" of yours just doesn't want you to let it go. As if they don't understand that there is absolutely no use for them anymore...all they would be good for is taking up space in your refrigerator making it harder to fit other things in...

I'm at a point now where I want MORE! Give me something that doesn't expire...something like WATER. Something that you know you need and you know won't let you down. Something you know you can preserve and everytime you take a sip it quenches your thirst and never leaves a sour taste in your mouth. It's always there and you never have to go far to get it. Think about this for a second...most times when looking for a beverage to drink we're picky...some like sprite, some like coke...but what about when you are just in DESPERATE need of a thirst quencher...we run straight to that water fountain that's ALWAYS been there. That same water fountain that we walk past to get to the drink machine...ever been disappointed when the drink machine ran out of your soda?? IT'S THE SAME THING!! Sometimes I wonder if there's a water fountain that I've continuously looked over, seeing as though I keep buying milk and it gets SPOILED and constantly buying drinks and it goes FLAT.

This is for all the ladies that understand first-hand where I'm coming from...stop settling for these "milk like" relationships that come and go like the seasons. If you know you deserve more, I say it's time to UP your standards and go for that WATER. After all, it is a NATURAL resource and a true relationship should feel the same.

Learning Daily,

Alondra C. Hunt

The Thrill of the CHASED...

Many of us women, are at a point in our lives where we are getting much more concerned about our futures. Security is one of our number one needs now. We want to be sure that we have a degree, sure that we have a job after, be sure that we will have enough to support a family...and that's where it all begins..."family".

We dream about having beautiful kids with the perfect husband...but where oh where could he be? We will find ourselves getting frustrated and discouraged in our hunt for the perfect spouse. He needs to be tall, dark, and handsome...with goals and ambitions...with love for kids...and willing to share..and so on and so forth! We will search high and low for a good, decent man. All the while we have our perfect list in mind, one that we constructed so very meticulously that we can see his face, know his name, and can vividly imagine the feeling we get when we're with him...

And then we meet someone...itching for affection and the need to feel like we're one step closer to our perfect life, we turn this someone into "him" by simply ignoring the fact that he has more negative aspects than good. He may have one of the qualities of "him"...but we know that one is definitely not enough. Yet and still, we invest time anyway in hope that as the days and months go by that he will evolve into "him". Maybe, just maybe, you can provoke a change. We put our time and energy into a forced evolution that is, to state it plainly, a FAIL.

Now here we are, one year later, heart broken and confused...feeling defeated because we can't figure out where we went wrong...

I'm here to say that after two heartbreaks and plenty of "could-have-been-great-but-just-wasn't" flings...I think I have the answer.

The bible says that "A man who findeth a wife, findeth a good thing". Read that to yourself a couple of times...pick out the subject and verb, if you will. A MAN who FINDS...never once in that does the woman do any action. So based on that alone, I say we all go wrong when we get this "Where's Waldo?" mentality.

And for the sake of discussion...I'm going to leave you with that thought...look out for part two!

IN CASE YOU MISSED IT

Above is the video of Mr. Brown's (wink face) unforgettable performace at the BET awards! My previous blog touches on this emotional tribute...but you can watch and decide for yourself! ENJOY

My Motto: F**K A NIGGA

*Real S**t*

Are You WIG Me Or NOT?!

Hey loves! (That's me to the left,by the way.)

So recently I bought my first half wig and I must say I'm IN LOVE! This thing is great. I don't know if you can tell or not, but I have one on in that picture. I got it from my local beauty supply store for about 25 dollars. It's so stylish and easy to wear! To blend the wig, all I did was made a head band out of my hair and some of the wig hair by doing a two-strand twist across the front. If you are looking for a summer time hair do, then I suggest trying one of these wigs out!

(I can't think of the brand of wig I bought,sorry, but the style is Celtic! Hope that helps)

*MUST HAVES*

BEYcuz She's BEY

Plainly stated: I love Beyonce'...it wouldn't be my blog without her :-)

Chris Brown's M.J. Tribute BET Awards 2010

Okay, so last night Chris Brown did an AMAZING tribute to Michael Jackson. In my opinion it was long over due because he should have done it last year, but of course he was in big trouble with the whole Rhi-Rhi beat down. That sets grounds for a huge question tho...to those of you who watched it...do you think those were genuine tears or directions from a very smart P.R.? Now, if you're not aware, Chris began to cry, what seemed hysterically at the end of his performance. It seemed quite heartfelt, but considering the song he was attempting to sing "Man in the Mirror", it came off a little cliche'. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for Chris and I'm so proud of him...but were the tears legit? The world may never know...

Been A While...BUT I'M BACK...

So...I'm back and ready to roll...I think it's been over a year since my last blog but I promise to try to stay consistent. This isn't really anything 'juicy" just a come-back-blog so to speak. Anyways...stay tuned!