False hopes and broken dreams are all I seem to encounter. Even when I know that it's no good I still buy into it anyway. Like milk that's kept past the expiration date...things will definitely go sour soon. What's crazy is that it's great while it lasts but when you least expect it it STINKS the texture CHANGES and you have to throw it down the drain. What's more confusing is that it just might be okay a couple days after it supposedly expires so you just hold on to it KNOWING that one day it just won't benefit you...
I know many of us have experienced "milk like" relationships...you just know it won't last or go anywhere but you hold on to it for what it's worth...WHY DO WE DO THAT??!! Kinda like when you crave cereal and you realize you can't have it because your milk is NO GOOD...why must we wait until we are disappointed?? Why must we hold on only to know that eventually the grip must loosen when we're not ready to do so? It's so unfortunate for many of us because when we pick this "milk" we take time to do it, you look for the one with the expiration date that's farthest away from the day you bought it. For instance...say you met a guy with a little baggage, you continue to talk to him just because he says it's a POSSIBILITY that his load will get lighter and he can indulge more into you(BINGO!)...that sounds good to your ears but in the back of your mind you know for a fact that he'll return to pick those bags up...and you're not really bothered because you figure, hey, it's nothing I ain't gon' trip when (not if) he does...
But what happens when nothing turns into something?? What happens when things are starting to expire but you just don't wanna let go? In many cases you get a little hope because they day after you know your milk expires you can still use it...by then you're probably thinking of great ways to get rid of it before it spoils...we all know "milk" is good for making the SWEETEST of treats...might as well get it while it's good, right??? WRONG!
We mess ourselves up going in with that "I won't care if..." attitude, especially if things switch gears and your feelings start to change. The truth of the matter is you WILL care and the pain of disappointment will set in...it doesn't last long but the fact that YOU let it happen bothers you most. That's when you're left with regrets...the moment when you realize that you should have thrown that milk away and gotten a new bottle. Oh, it makes the situation worse when that "milk" of yours just doesn't want you to let it go. As if they don't understand that there is absolutely no use for them anymore...all they would be good for is taking up space in your refrigerator making it harder to fit other things in...
I'm at a point now where I want MORE! Give me something that doesn't expire...something like WATER. Something that you know you need and you know won't let you down. Something you know you can preserve and everytime you take a sip it quenches your thirst and never leaves a sour taste in your mouth. It's always there and you never have to go far to get it. Think about this for a second...most times when looking for a beverage to drink we're picky...some like sprite, some like coke...but what about when you are just in DESPERATE need of a thirst quencher...we run straight to that water fountain that's ALWAYS been there. That same water fountain that we walk past to get to the drink machine...ever been disappointed when the drink machine ran out of your soda?? IT'S THE SAME THING!! Sometimes I wonder if there's a water fountain that I've continuously looked over, seeing as though I keep buying milk and it gets SPOILED and constantly buying drinks and it goes FLAT.
This is for all the ladies that understand first-hand where I'm coming from...stop settling for these "milk like" relationships that come and go like the seasons. If you know you deserve more, I say it's time to UP your standards and go for that WATER. After all, it is a NATURAL resource and a true relationship should feel the same.
Learning Daily,
Alondra C. Hunt
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